This is hope

My dear blogger friend Stephanie’s comment prompted me to write this entry. She left a comment on my very frustrating “Frustrated” post below. And Stephanie …u are right! I am positive!!! And I need to be back in that positive zone. In fact, I am.

There are some positive rumors circulating out there that referrals can in fact be much larger then usual…..everyday I really do feel more like this is going to happen and that I am in fact becoming a mother. My feelings of love for this child are so huge and it’s o’k. I am not crazy. In fact, most waiting parents are like me…we just adore this baby that we are creating in our hearts and souls. So, I will stay positive. I will focus on the fact that each day is moving on…I can not change what can’t be changed and most of all, why am I worrying about things I have no control over ?

My friend Ann Marie (comeundone.typepad.com) is days away from heading to Russia to pick up the most handsome baby boy in the world….Baby Bee. This is hope.
My friend Susan isn’t that far way either from meeting her baby girl. This is hope. Mother’s Day came and went.. Everyone honored me for being the “waiting mom” that I am. This is hope.
When I saw my pregnant relative, I greeted her with tears. She let me hold her and touch her belly. I wasn’t jealous. I wasn’t envious. I wasn’t pissed off. I was an expectant mom like she was. This is hope.
And yesterday my niece Addie whispered to me that she had something to tell me…..I bent closer and she said “I love you". –I knew then for sure, this is hope!