Being in control of something

So it's been a week and two days on NutriSystem. I can't tell you how much I've lost, because I haven't gotten on a scale. I know that this might be anti-proper dieting behavior but for me, it's the right way. I must say that at the gym this morning, I didn't wince so much when I looked at myself in the mirror.

Last summer I did Weight Watchers. I got on the scale every single day, maybe five times a day. And the frustrating part was that the scale wasn't moving. I honestly was following the plan and counting my points. Every week I'd go to the meetings and lose an ounce or two. But nothing to brag about. One week, I gained weight and I had followed the plan 100%. It was the most frustrating thing. I began to question whether or not I could ever lose weight and I believe with that mindset, u can't. I am one who is very active for the most part. I walk at least 30 minutes a day five or six days a week. Lately I've been visiting the gym at least four times a week. I'll start biking this afternoon in fact. I suppose my downfall this past year has been two factors: 1 Just noshing in the evenings-even if it's just 100 calorie popcorn, I'll have two bags and then add some raisins 2. Feeling like I have no control over anything at times.

I am really proud of myself as this has been so far a very easy process. I know the reason. I am really in control of something for a change and I really believe I am going to lose the weight I need to lose. My goal is at least 15 pounds, maybe 20. I know I am a 46 year old pre-menopuasal woman now, and my metabolism isn't what it used to be. But when my size 8's turn into 10's, this is not good for me. I am only 5'3 (maybe) and I have to be very careful. I for the rest of my life, really am going to have to watch everything that goes into my mouth. Not get neurotic about it, but really watch what I put in there. What Nutri-System is teaching me is that anything can be eaten. It's really a matter of portion sizes. I believe that is true with Weight Watchers as well as Jenny Craig. It's all the same. Eat less. Exercise more. Bottom line, that's what we have to do.