Monday, April 30, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
O'k. Before you watch this...you have to understand the joke. About 10 year ago my sister called me very early on my birthday morning. I was outside that morning in Central Park walking and came home to hear a Happy Birthday greeting from my sister in an a very "Broadway", Opera-ish style....it's become a huge joke, and each year she delivers a message. This year I said, I want to post it...and she put together this! How talented she is :)
Also, my niece Sydney said, "Mom, you think you are funny....you are not." That kids doesn't understand humor :) Thanks Lori for embarrassing yourself for me! I love you.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
"Take it as new weds expecting to be pregnant. No telling when that would be happen, right? When we know how long it takes we can not wait. That is human, simply human. So, it is understandable that everybody can not wait.But we have to wait. It is good that we do not exactly know how long we must wait. That helps. That gives us hope. So, why not just let things stay like thatand ask no questions?Thanks for your understanding, W" So for me, I take from this.....the uncertainty of the length of time we wait, just about anything is possible. With possibility there is hope....with hope there is change. I love focusing on the possiblity. And that is what I intend to do.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Friday, April 20, 2007
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
I had a migraine today.
This nightmare in Virginia is almost to much to bear.
Sanjanya is off American Idol.
It's still crappy out.
My LID group -Rose and Audrey-we have pledged not to go on Rumor Queen blog anymore, it was upsetting us all to read rumors aka the truth.
The sun is supposed to shine this weekend.
My stepdaugther is 14 this weekend.
I am 46 next week.
Please go to http://www.campsnuggly.com. It's my sister's company, which is apparently getting more web traffic from this blog then from Google adwords. We want to test Lori's tracking system so if you can thre, that would be great.
Monday, April 16, 2007
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Thank you for writing. I am so happy to hear that you are doing well and that the photograph has meaning for you. I think that's the best
a photograph can do in the world.
All best wishes, and congratulations on the baby. You're about to fall in love. How wonderful.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Thursday, April 12, 2007
I had to deal with my fibroid and in '05 elected to do so. My options were a laporscopictechnique (but no one can guarantee that this wouldn't effect fertility), a myomectomy which entails major surgery but preserves the uterus and fertility, or of course a hysterectomy. I elected to have the myo..."just in case". And the surgery was great...I felt better...but still didn't' get pregnant...and still wasn't driven to get the fertility meds and all the treatments. At one point after this someone extremely close to me said she would give me an egg. We discussed it and it was the most beautiful thing anyone had everyone wanted me to do. But there would be no guarantees. I dropped it. I didn't try that hard.
O'k, my point in all of this, and truthfully I write this with the hope that in 20 years a beautiful little Chinese American woman is reading this about her mom and her life and she sees that our union was truly meant to be. I was meant to give birth to her thru adoption. I am one of those people who when she wants something ...she gets it. This adoption is meant to be. I know that in my heart....I know that. Lia-Rose....you are the daughter I have dreamt about ...this is the way it's supposed to happen. I have to believe that this wait is here because we are supposed to be together this way and in this time. Remember what the Chinese say about the "red thread"....Chinese wisdom tells us that certain people are destined to come together in this lifetime.When people are so destined, nothing - - not geography, not age, not circumstance - - will change that destiny. These people are thought to be connected by A Red Thread.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Here's another photo of me and my sister. I like this one much better then the one I had earlier posted. Lori thinks it looks like her head is growing out from my neck....not sure about that, but these two sisters love each other very much. We drive each other crazy, although not really at all-although I am positive we drive our husbands a little nuts, but there is no love quite like the love of a sister and the love one has for her "shish" aka sister. (PS, I'm the one with the lighter hair on the left, pre my bangs :) )
Monday, April 09, 2007
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Friday, April 06, 2007
I need some help here. First off, I am really engrossed in reading the “Secret”. I’ve mentioned it in several postings. It’s about the Law of Attraction. “What you think, is”. I really believe in much of what I am reading. It’s a good way to check myself when I start thinking negatively. I say this all to point out that right now I am thinking very negatively. You see, and I hate to post this on a blog where rumors can start flying all over the place, but it looks like the next batch of referrals was not a big batch. Meaning they only matched a few days of log ins. Now there could be a lot of people logged in those days, but what it means is that it will take three months of referrals to get thru one month of log ins! It’s very very discouraging. I get caught up in the wait and think, my god this is going to take me forever….it’s never ever going to happen, I wasn’t meant to be a mom! I’ll never be a mom. Now, I relate back to the Secret. ….What if we never ever doubted that we were going to be moms….instead of kvetching it’s not going to happen, we will never be…change our mindset to say and think…I am a mom I am a mom …, I am with her. I am a mom. Let’s start believing we have our girls. We are their moms. Like attracts, like. And what is….IS. …maybe we can start moving paperwork!
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Sleep well...and come on April...bring us some warmth!