Friday, May 11, 2007

Don't read if u are in a good mood


I am not in a good mood right now. If u are a waiting family, I warn you that this posting may frustrate and upset you. Here's an alert...if u want to remain positive...avoid reading this. TONITE I AM FRUSTRATED. That's with a capital FFFFFF. I am. I did it. I started reading the rumors. I don't like what I see. Why is this happening? Why does this horribly painful wait have to happen to us right now! I think it's me people. I think I am the reason that the wait is extending. I am sorry, but I really think that if I wasn't adopting right now the wait would be shorter. I am the reason we aren't with our babies...I am saying this now...because I can't think of any other reason why this is so horribly long and it keeps getting longer. IT'S MY FAULT! I just know it. Why else? Not to say that it's a case of "poor Wendi"...but the fact is....I have not had much luck at this becoming a mother thing...so why should this be easy? I have infected the entire pool of adoptive families...it's just my luck ...the wait was 13 months when I started.....I was afraid that we wouldn't be here for my nieces' Bat Mitzvah in March of '08....now I wonder if Lia-Rose will be hear by Addie's Bat Mitzvah in 2014! Oh please...I know it's about those little girls ...those innocent children in the orphanages that need to be taken care of and happy and healthy...but I need to say right now.....I WANT TO BE A MOMMY ALREADY my DAUGHTER NEEDS ME NOW......PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE...we need some positive vibes and some positive movement. Please a positive rumor...some news that says a speed up is near.....there are tons of us who are ready and waiting....oh dear G-d....please please help us all...the babies and us parents! PLEASE.......we need some positive news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 comments:

Susan said...

So, my mother once told me how years before, she wouldn't come into the living room if my father was watching a Mets game, because she was a jinx and they always lost when she watched. She told me how one day he said to her (and pardon if most of this is paraphrased), "Wow. What hubris!", to which she asked, "What do you mean?". He said, "All these world-class professional ballplayers, trainers, managers, thousands and thousands of fans...and you think YOU determine the outcome??"

Just thought I'd share. Hang in there, girlie....

stephanie said...

Just got back from a trip and am so sorry to hear of the frustration from my positive friend. I have said the exact same thing to my husband, "it's my fault". Now, I say, had we chosen Ethiopia, I would have my baby already. It sucks, Wendi! I sending a big old cyber hug to you!!