My mind can't stop thinking

My mind can not stop thinking. It's hard to sleep....it's hard to concentrate...it's hard to stop thinking about this baby. What a strange time this is. I do well at work, I think. I really try to concentrate on the job at hand, while checking into the Yahoo Message groups through-out the day. It's just hard. I have to admit, I have so many worries. What if this baby doesn't come through? What if what if what if. I have to turn it off. I spend my evenings online. I don't even turn the television on, or put on music. I read blogs, I read adoption website. I read about the wonderful stories. I read about the rumors. I read and try to learn as much as possible. In the meantime, my poor husband must want to kill me....but he knows how important this is for me to do. No updates today. Just still waiting on the I171. Four weeks next week...we are getting closer. Please say a few prayers for us.