Numbness

The past few days I have been down. Really angry and sad. Then I think to myself, why should I be so lucky? There are hundreds and thousands of people trying to have a baby...waiting for their adoption to go through. Why should I Wendi be so lucky to have my child. I don't deserve it more then anyone else. Then the numbness takes over and I just don't feel anymore.

But quite frankly, this adoption is really about Lia. She deserves to be loved, to be celebrated, to be cared for. I will take myself out of my prayers and just pray for her. For that is what matters. Dear God, this little girl has been placed in our care. We have our hearts wide open, our arms truly spread wide....we are ready to bring her home. Please see that this process continue swiftly and painlessly. Lia deserves her forever family. We are here for her. Please please.