Monday, February 16, 2009

This is the part

I hate. I am so nervous. We are just a few days away. Is it normal to feel nervous and completely lose confidence? Is it normal to feel that you are not good enough for this child? Is it normal to want to eat everything in sight? Is it normal to want to divorce and then remarry your husband? Ugh.

So we wait. Friday is the second hearing. Then a few weeks later final decree. Lia's hair is now past her shoulders. She is almost three and a half. She needs her mama.

Her mama and papa need her.

8 comments:

veggiemom said...

Just like every other super emotional event, there is no normal. Just hang on. You will get through.

Email Marketing Yenta said...

Thanks Kerri....I need to remember that....xo

Joanne said...

SO NORMAL! I felt this way before the births of my boys and while waiting to bring Mia home! It is such an emotional time and you have every right to eat whatever you want:)
Keep us updated! My friend is still waiting for her court date, it's been 2 months since referral and she is going nuts ... this slow down is awful!
(Oh, she would love to be invited to your blog!)

Jocelyn said...

Sending you hugs and prayers for this friday!!

Email Marketing Yenta said...

Thanks all!

zhonghaosmom said...

Hi Wendi,
Totally normal in my book!
xo

karen said...

Hi Wendi
I know that helpless feeling because all you can do it wait. However keep remembering the wait will soon be over. What you are feeling is so normal. This too will pass!!!!!
Best Wishes
Karen

Susan said...

As far as Lia needing you and you needing her, you know that everyone who knows you agrees and is pulling for all of you 100%!

As for the rest...get used to it!! Seriously, you're someone who's very comfortable and confident in her career skin, and that's a world where you have control. As someone who's only been a mom for a little over a year, I can tell ya that parenting is a whole 'nother kitten! You'll often second-guess yourself, question whether you're good enough, if the rumors are true you'll frequently wanna paddle the bejeezus out of your beloved hubby, and there won't be a pint of Ben & Jerry's that's safe in your vicinity!!! You'll be frustrated out of your mind, you'll know that there's a very simple answer but have no idea what it is, and you'll fight thru bureaucratic red tape when you have to for your daughter... In other words, you're already a MOM!!! And missing her like you do, and fighting for her the way you are, you're already a GREAT one.

Think of this phase right now as transition!