Sunday, June 20, 2010

She just amazes me

In the past few weeks Lia-Rose has really become less of a baby and more of a little girl. It's just truly amazing how she is just blossoming, exploding with language, growing, learning and just loving life more and more. Sometimes when I look at her and she is quiet I wonder what she is thinking. She claims not to remember much of Taiwan. We ask her often. We talk about her Nanny and the family she has there. Not making it an issue. We want to make it just a natural piece of her life. I wonder if she remembers the neglect she suffered. The tears she must have cried as a baby. The times she ached for someone to hold her and no one came. It's a wonder that this child is as "together" as she really is. Now, Lia has her moments. Moments of sheer exhaustion for me and her. It usually happens when it's Lia, myself and someone else. (never without mommy in the room) She just wants attention. Craves it. She acts up. That's what this is about for her. Having limits. She never did. No one set them for her as a baby. For 2 1/2 years she had no limits. No structure, she was forced to survive and fight her way. Finding anyway to do it. When she acts up it's my job to show her the way. To set the limits and give her focus. She is doing well in school. She does great with her babysitter. It's just her mommy's attention and love that she fights for. I try to tell her that it's not necessary to fight for it. She has it. 100%. But in the meantime, we will work through those moments. Fill them with lots of hugs, and kisses and discipline. It is what she needs, craves and deserves.

No comments: